why hello

I don't use this blog as much as I should, really. Between Livejournal and actual journaling I have not found the time. Maybe I should make this one just all public and let people stumble upon it. Or, give the link to family and let them read it to catch up on my life. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

I do know that I am leaving for my trip in 3 days, which is so exciting. I also know that Jacqueline is leaving in that same time and that is so beyond depressing. I've never lost a best friend like that before and it's a tough pill to swallow. A really tough one. Especially because we wasted a good month not speaking which lost a ton of time. It's really getting down to the wire and I don't know. I started crying at work today because of it and that was terrible. I'm writing her a letter and making her a mix as a Christmas / goodbye gift and that's going to be a hard one to finish. I dunno, maybe I'll work on it tomorrow at work.

What a way to start a new year. In the place that I love but losing a person that I absolutely adore and has helped me in ways that no other has been able to. So bittersweet.